Unpleasent Week. Sad Week for me. But no matter how hard i tried to smile. Deep inside. Its still hurting. Idk how to say this, But really all i want to do now is To Tell You How Much I Need You in life. When the time u said To Forget you. All i do was Tears running down my face. That phrase really hurts me. Is that what u really want to do ? ._.

Its been 2 months since we known each other. Yeah thats good. Time pass so quickly I didnt even realise. Whenever ur down. Im there for you. Whenever you need me. Im there for you. But as time flies. We started to quarrel. I really hate this when it happens. I love to disturb you when ur watching IT. Well Yeah its fun. I smile whenever i hear u laugh. But for just a short period of time.

Im a soft hearted person. I Cried. Well im not ashamed to tell that im crying or something Its just the way I am. I really dun want you to go. I dont wish for you to just walk off like that. I want to spend more time with you again. I missed the past.

When im at Indonesia. Thats the time i miss u the most. I cried on the first night. My room mates ask me why i cried and such a crybaby. I just tell them. I miss some1 who is far but yet special to me.

On the first day we met. You were with ur dEVILL mei. And you both talk craps. But im quiet :X
and u whispered me and i said im smsing . dats our first conver. Time flies fast do they.

Well . No matter how much u say. How much u want. Ill be here waiting

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Kini kita saling bermesra
Masa berganti hati diubati
Mekarnya cinta mula dirasai
Semakin ingin kucuba luahkan
Engkau masih tidak mengerti
Cemburu terasa musnahlah impian
Lihat engkau terus direbuti

Berkali ku nyatakan ku sayangkan padamu
Namun kau masih membisu
Kau tak mengerti ingin kau ku miliki
Kau menghancuri hati ini

Ku cuba nyatakan rasa cintaku
Hati masih terus keliru
Andai kau fahami isi hatiku
Yang benar ingin memilikimu

Berkali ku nyatakan ku sayangkan padamu
Namun kau masih membisu
Kau tak mengerti ingin kau ku miliki
Kau menghancuri hati ini
Usah bandingkan sejarah lama
Kau tahu ku pernah setia
Serik ku untuk bercinta lagi takut dirimu disakiti

Berkali ku nyatakan ku sayangkan padamu
Namun kau masih membisu
Kau tak mengerti ingin kau ku miliki
Kau menghancuri hati ini

Berkali ku nyatakan ku sayangkan padamu
Namun kau masih membisu
Kau tak mengerti ingin kau ku miliki
Kau menghancuri hati ini

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Feel abit sad with today's conver. Called her while going work. Wanted to talk to you more. But you wanted to call your friend. So i give in. Waited for 15 minutes. But you didnt call back. So i called back. And you said u just put down ur call. And we talked. And the most saddest thing is you said. Your friend is more important than me. Well that hurts me. But i didnt show it to you. I dun wanna you to know. But deep inside. It hurts. And i reached orchard. You wanted to go bath. But i insist. Wanted you to pei me talk till i reach work. But you dun wanna. And im pissed. So i just hanged. Sorry. Cant take it. I dun wanna throw anger at you. So i just hanged. I apologise.

I wanted to tell you how much i love you. Everytime i tell you i love you. You just dun care bout it. So many times i told you dat i love you. You just treat it like you didnt heard anything. Well i cant force you to love me. But GIRL you the one i loved. You have changed. I amd such a sensitive person. Well I think i think too much. Maybe im too senitive. Maybe im too petty. Well dats me.

After work i sat on the train listen to this song for how many uncountable times. I dun know why i hear it for so many times. Every words in the song. Is meaningful to me. And every words. Make me realise how much I love you. Well This is life. Either i suceed or fail. I shall not give up. I'll keep the promise to go to poly one day. Even though my results in the 1st term. Didnt did well. But i know. One day i will be able to grant the promise. And i know i will (:

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