Unpleasent Week. Sad Week for me. But no matter how hard i tried to smile. Deep inside. Its still hurting. Idk how to say this, But really all i want to do now is To Tell You How Much I Need You in life. When the time u said To Forget you. All i do was Tears running down my face. That phrase really hurts me. Is that what u really want to do ? ._.

Its been 2 months since we known each other. Yeah thats good. Time pass so quickly I didnt even realise. Whenever ur down. Im there for you. Whenever you need me. Im there for you. But as time flies. We started to quarrel. I really hate this when it happens. I love to disturb you when ur watching IT. Well Yeah its fun. I smile whenever i hear u laugh. But for just a short period of time.

Im a soft hearted person. I Cried. Well im not ashamed to tell that im crying or something Its just the way I am. I really dun want you to go. I dont wish for you to just walk off like that. I want to spend more time with you again. I missed the past.

When im at Indonesia. Thats the time i miss u the most. I cried on the first night. My room mates ask me why i cried and such a crybaby. I just tell them. I miss some1 who is far but yet special to me.

On the first day we met. You were with ur dEVILL mei. And you both talk craps. But im quiet :X
and u whispered me and i said im smsing . dats our first conver. Time flies fast do they.

Well . No matter how much u say. How much u want. Ill be here waiting

Pertemuan yang tiada terduga
Kini kita saling bermesra
Masa berganti hati diubati
Mekarnya cinta mula dirasai
Semakin ingin kucuba luahkan
Engkau masih tidak mengerti
Cemburu terasa musnahlah impian
Lihat engkau terus direbuti

Berkali ku nyatakan ku sayangkan padamu
Namun kau masih membisu
Kau tak mengerti ingin kau ku miliki
Kau menghancuri hati ini

Ku cuba nyatakan rasa cintaku
Hati masih terus keliru
Andai kau fahami isi hatiku
Yang benar ingin memilikimu

Berkali ku nyatakan ku sayangkan padamu
Namun kau masih membisu
Kau tak mengerti ingin kau ku miliki
Kau menghancuri hati ini
Usah bandingkan sejarah lama
Kau tahu ku pernah setia
Serik ku untuk bercinta lagi takut dirimu disakiti

Berkali ku nyatakan ku sayangkan padamu
Namun kau masih membisu
Kau tak mengerti ingin kau ku miliki
Kau menghancuri hati ini

Berkali ku nyatakan ku sayangkan padamu
Namun kau masih membisu
Kau tak mengerti ingin kau ku miliki
Kau menghancuri hati ini

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Feel abit sad with today's conver. Called her while going work. Wanted to talk to you more. But you wanted to call your friend. So i give in. Waited for 15 minutes. But you didnt call back. So i called back. And you said u just put down ur call. And we talked. And the most saddest thing is you said. Your friend is more important than me. Well that hurts me. But i didnt show it to you. I dun wanna you to know. But deep inside. It hurts. And i reached orchard. You wanted to go bath. But i insist. Wanted you to pei me talk till i reach work. But you dun wanna. And im pissed. So i just hanged. Sorry. Cant take it. I dun wanna throw anger at you. So i just hanged. I apologise.

I wanted to tell you how much i love you. Everytime i tell you i love you. You just dun care bout it. So many times i told you dat i love you. You just treat it like you didnt heard anything. Well i cant force you to love me. But GIRL you the one i loved. You have changed. I amd such a sensitive person. Well I think i think too much. Maybe im too senitive. Maybe im too petty. Well dats me.

After work i sat on the train listen to this song for how many uncountable times. I dun know why i hear it for so many times. Every words in the song. Is meaningful to me. And every words. Make me realise how much I love you. Well This is life. Either i suceed or fail. I shall not give up. I'll keep the promise to go to poly one day. Even though my results in the 1st term. Didnt did well. But i know. One day i will be able to grant the promise. And i know i will (:

Hmm. Didnt go out much recently. Go work to earn my moneh back. This fews days my mood has it ups and downs. Sometimes good. Sometimes bad. Well. I still hope nicole talks to me again. Nicole talk to me ! dont avoid me ! D: BFF is sick OMG. Get well soon yea ! Got flame must throw ! Dont be like me ! U should know what ! :X Well yeah, im going to work now ! Toodles :D

Today really bo mood ! Firstly about nicole. Im sorry i lied to u bout not telling u im a malay. Im scared of Telling u the truth. Idk how to tell u. Thx for forcing me out to tell u that. If not its more worst. Nicole. I will remember the things that u said. The moment we had in maple yeah ! even though its for a short period of time. Thx for being dere for me. Its ur choice for not giving me another chance or giving me 1 more chance ! i Seriously hope we do not lost contact yeah !

Danial called me at 7. Saying results were out. And durint tat moment was busy doing smth la ! Den i asked him whr to check. He talk crap ._. kns. Den finally found it i was like OMG my results were like SHIT la can. Digital Electronics Grade D . Electronics and Electrical Principles Grade D. And maths. hehehehe Grade A :D woooo ! i pro at maths ok ! My GPA still cant get me into poly. I need 4 gpa points OMG. Can i acheive it ?! Stay Tuned till Neext Year ! hahahaha ! lame ._. Sorry im being too energetic. hahaha ! :D

1) WHO TOLD YOU TO DO THIS STUPID THING?!?!

Chan.

2) What do you hope for now?

To be with HER ;D

3) What is the last thing you do/say if tomorrow is the end of the world?

I would tell HER i love her ;D

4) Do you hate your friends sometimes?

Hmm yeah. Sometimes i do.

5) What will you do if your best friend has been kidnapped?

Uh, i nv experience this before. so idk :D


6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

Nope cause i can make a rainbow myself too ! Doesnt mean rainbow is made after the rain :X

7) Who will you choose between your ex boyf & your current boyf?

Im a boy. And plox im not a ghey la can !

8) What's your desired age of marriage?

18.

9) Are you happy with your life now?

Kinda sad D:

10) What if your crush asked you out?

Idk. cause currently my crush doesnt love me D:

11) What will you do when you have a crush that knows you have a crush on him/her?

Tell her dat i really love her

12) What feelings do you hate the most?

Hmm. Anger. Pissed off ?

13) What will you do if you fall in love with a guy/girl?

Cherish her

14) What are you looking forward to in the coming weeks?

SCHOOL ! i hate rotting at home

15) The most important thing in your life.

HER ! and BFF :D

16) Who do you hope to always be there for you?

BFF. She is always be my listening ear . Thx ya BFF ;D

17) Do you find life meaningless?

YEAH. Sometimes i wish i die on the spot

18) Who do you love the most?

I love myself the most :D

19) Do you believe that there's 'True Love'?

Idk. All the love i been thru is all Fakes. Kns.

20) What's your greatest wish?

To be with HER

21) What will you change if you can turn back time?

MY attitute towards her ! D: i regret it.

Tagged by: Chan

Q1) if your boyfriend betrayes you, what will be your reaction?
ans: Im not GAY la plox !

2) if you have a dream come true what will it be?
ans: Owe A BMW :D

3) which would you choose, family or friends?
ans: Both la ! love them both !

4) what kind of home do you think is suitable for living?
ans: Peaceful or sometimes noisy ! :D

5) what's your ideal boyfriend or girlfriend like?
ans: I have non currently ! D:

6) which is more blessed? (being loved or loving someone)
ans: To me. Being Loved :D

7) how long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
ans: As long as i have the heart for her. I will wait her ;D

8) if the person you had secret crush on is already attached,what will you do?
ans: Wish her Last long with him ;D

9) which would you choose, money or love?
ans: I want both ! No money cant spend with my girl D:

10) In life, what's your first pirority?
ans: Idk :X

11) how do you see yourself is 10 years time?
ans: I think in 10 years time . Im married ? LOL

12) who are the most important person(s) in your life?
ans:Family,Friends, BFF ;D

13) what kind of person do you think the person that tagged you is?
ans: Candy (BFF) Purposely ask me to do this ! But she rocks ;D

14) would you rather be single & rich or poor but married?
ans: Idk leis. See how my future lor. hahaha.

15) what's the first thing you do every morning?
ans: Open my eyes la ! Stupid

16) would you sacrifice the time you spend with your family & spend it with your friends?
ans: Maybe. See situation ;D

17) what is the thing you can't bear to leave aside?
ans: HER and my handphone D:

18) what type of friends do you have?
ans: Diff Friends Diff personalities. So yeah ! I love them all :D

19) what type of person is unappealing to you?
ans: Childish person . Act cute :D

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